I would have never suspected for this year to be so – big.
It feels as if everyone’s true colours are beginning to shine nice and bright this year. Everyday it seems I lose a friend, and slowly over weeks or months I gain even better ones, and even though it’s a shame that I’ve lost that connection with the people I have known for years, nothings seems better than some fresh air.
My horoscope incites that I should worry about myself this year, and focus on building my own character before jumping into other people’s lives. Although it’s funny, because all I’ve ever done my whole life was to be there for others in their time of need, to comfort, to love and support, and ironically enough, it’s really nipped me in the ass. The last few months have been a real game changer for me, and so much has changed in the last year that it’s almost hard to believe. I’ve realized how fake people can really be, even those who you consider your ‘best friend.’
Despite my health problems with my thyroid that I’ve been battling against during the last 8 months, i’m finally flying out to Boston on February 10th to have surgery! Big news I know. I’ve been waiting so long to get things going, and although my biopsy results have come back as inconclusive but suspicious, I am happy to finally get it dealt with by a real professional. The whole idea of surgery does indeed scare the living daylights out of me, but the experience will be worthwhile and I can finally get this bastard out of me.
I’ve started up P90X again, and did some plyometrics today, God did my legs feel weak as hell after, I even collapsed going down the stairs afterwards. I do feel a lot more rejuvenated after that workout though, which is what i’m going to be keeping up in the next few weeks before surgery.
So overall my advice for everyone is to worry about yourself right now, focus on what you can do to make your own self, better. Ignore those who give up on you and always push forward positively, remove the negatives. Hater’s gonna hate, and hell yeah they’re gonna talk behind your back, but hey; that’s where they belong.
Oh, and don’t even think about loving someone else if you cannot love yourself, period.